I haven't felt this downtrodden in quite a long time.
Two years worth of research and work. A 42 page report. A detailed plan for how to present the report to the EAC (our faculty senate, basically) and call for a vote…
Only to be forcibly and obviously sabotaged by the EAC chair, who is also a member of the task force. I was always uncomfortable letting the chair of the umbrella group join the task force because, as expected, she asserted her influence all over the process for the last two years, even going so far as to take the draft report to the vice president of the college (and all kinds of Deans and muckety-mucks) without consulting task force chairs or members.
I won't even get into the details of the sabotage, but it was blatant and covered over by "woops, I made a mistake, but now we're bound by it."
I'll be resigning from my own fucking faculty senate. I'll likely be writing an open letter of no confidence in the chair.
I have no idea what to do with my task force…we've been told to come back next month and try again.
I'm on sabbatical, I shouldn't have even been there today but we set wheels in motion in May (as we presented the recommendations for "discussion") so that we could present for action vote in October. Now learning that the chair did not put our May presentation as a "discussion" but rather an "update". Having not been on a discussion agenda prevents us from calling a vote.
This could drag on for the rest of the year, if not longer… and I am not capable of showing up to a meeting every month in which I not only don't have faith in the chair, but believe her capable of sabotage and great intentional damage. Also great damaging ineptitude.
So hurt. So angry. So much work, feeling so much like I let down the very people I've been fighting to get equity for…?imported from G+